Well, here we all are as homo-sapiens living in 2010 with some of the new inventions and technology that we thought we would have AND be using by this time but with some things and un-thought of cures for diseases (maybe only the wealthy, high powered, and genius minds know and are so privileged), haven’t happened yet.

Anyway, I’ve had a few “Diabetic episodes” as I call them which I’m not proud of at all, don’t even want to talk about, and I’m quite embarrassed; maybe that’s why I am speaking about it and not being in denial or just forgetting that it ever happened so I can improve. Yes, they were Diabetic reactions, seizures, severe hypoglycemia, and states of unconsciousness. Luckily, there was someone by my side to revive me and bring me “back to life.” I feel like a cat with nine lives and maybe more. If you ever had a diabetic seizure as you are older or have been unconscious or whatever it was, you know how it feels (terrible) and only you will know and have that experience. It’s almost unexplainable and for me, emotional. I was just so happy, grateful, and appreciative that I had, like I said, someone who “saved” me and who cared enough to not let me die.

I think it came about because a variety of things going on in my life such as my job, family, and interpersonal relationships just to name the main ones, and because of this horrible disease that as hard as you work at it, may sometimes sneak up and you can’t predict it or what will happen even with all the blood sugar testing, diet, exercise, insulin dosage that you try to take care of and compensate with for the activity or inactivity one does.

I don’t like to put blame on anyone but I do put the blame on myself and the stressors that have been in my life for a while now. I’ve been in the process of reducing and ridding them but of course, I’ve had some close calls while dealing with all this stress and unhappiness. Yet, when I say unhappiness, I don’t really mean unhappiness. I guess it’s more like anxiety, overwhelming, worry, concern, and apprehension feelings. I will admit, I am a worrier but my confident, go-at-it attitude evens it out a lot of the time; my astrology sign is Gemini naturally so I at least have two sides to my personality and moods. Of course, I’ve been a little depressed because of my stress and the things going on in my life but that doesn’t bring me all the way down because I do have my self-esteem, confidence, will power, independence, socialization, support system and many other things that keep me afloat.

In summary, the only thing I can offer is some advice and words of the wise.

1. Life is short and possibly even shorter with diabetes so take care of yourself with the disease.
2. Like Wilford Brimley said, “Check your blood sugar and check it often, there is just no reason not to.” Personally, I do think there are disparities to this because I tend to deviate from testing so often because its annoying, it hurts, leaves the skin scarred so to speak, and is expensive but ultimately I do force myself to test my blood sugar especially after what happened with my episodes and because even if I do know my body and feel that I’m either a good number, high, or low, I still test and I suggest every diabetic do the same.
3. Don’t let life stress get in the way too much. Find ways of dealing and coping with it.
4. If your blood sugars have been real good and you haven’t been doing that much physical activity then perhaps your normal amount of insulin will be just fine or, maybe give a tad less especially if you aren’t eating much, and don’t give extra. If you are high though for a long period (inactivity, sickness, infection) of time, don’t go crazy and give a whole bunch of units extra; more so if you aren’t going to eat much. Just give a regular dosage and eat what you can.
5. Most of all, don’t dwell on the past. Don’t worry about what could have been, what should have been, don’t analyze, or try to figure out all the whys and whats. I mean, yes, look back on it a little bit to figure out what may have caused the negative issue to happen so you can try to prevent it for the future but don’t do that much more than that. Accept things the way they are and maybe a negative will turn into a positive. It’s not easy but accepting things the way they are can sometimes be better and work or not and like I say for many things, it is what it is.

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